It has been more than a week since I am back in Sin. But I still miss Adelaide. Plenty. Plenty.

I miss the cold weather. The place. The people. The sight. Even the food.

I wonder when can I be back in Adelaide. Again. Once again.

Stay there maybe. Let myself have sometime to live there and see I really like being there permanently.

Sounds crazy, doesn't it? After 1 week of Adelaide. But I really like the place. Though the shops close at 5pm almost everyday.

My greatest wish in my life is just to be happy everyday. And healthy. So do my love one. Us together. Genuinely happy.

Is it attainable?

In Sin, I don't think so. This is definitely not said without any basis. It is said so after having born here, living here for two and a half decades.

I miss Adelaide more than someone else..

Happy 7th year anniversary.

I am so glad. It has been so long. You and me. Us. Together. =)

We are back from Adelaide yesterday. Our superb one week trip to attend my graduation ceremony. The trip has been perfect.

We enjoyed ourselves so much. The first 2 days we spent our busy time attending functions, dinner and socialising with the Australians. They were good hosts.

Touring my uni campus feels great too, even with Renee around. I was too happy to remind myself of her pretense and wolf in her sheep's skin.

The next days we spent great time together. Feeding baby kangeroos, cuddling koala, conquering my first mountain climbing and sailing jet boats. Nothing could have been better.

The weather was cold nevertheless after the 2 days when we were rushing for the school functions.
The wind was chilly. The lowest went down to 10 degree celcius. My face was cold. I bought a beanie and semi-woollen jacket.

We ended our trip in the casino, pressing jackpot machines through the night. It has been a fabulous holiday spending our time together.

Thank you. Without you, I know it wouldn't have been possible. I love you. Happy 7th year and much more years to come, till the end of my breath..

I know I will love you beyond the end of my breath. How I don't know yet. But I know I will know it eventually. At another horizon. Never ending till infinity...

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test80.aspx

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

Kind and Gentle

I don't want to live a double life anymore. I am tired.

I just want to get a life out for myself.

I just want to earn more money.

Be able to do things I want to.

Go to places. Travelling. Only travelling gives me the motivation for things to go on. Work. Really.. Nothing else does.

Buy things for myself. Things that I like.

For my house. For my home.

So that I can live comfortably.

Not depend on others.

I want  a career.

I am not doing anything useful at work now. It's already been stagnant for so long.

I want to move on and get over it. It's been the past. Who doesn't have past? We all have our past, don't we?

Haha, i xxxxxxx yesterday. Not really the direct type, but indirect.

So long since I did something similar. Couldn't believe I did that. BB was still stunned and wanted to do the usual way.

But basically, that was because I was seriously pissed. Sales are not for me. Especially a crowded one on a weekdays with long queues at the cashier.

I am not an auntie, perhaps. Yet.

I am so so sleepy today.

I don't know why I am always making myself miserable?

Am I am sadist? Do I actually enjoy myself suffering?

It's your strength and it's my weakness maybe.

But I am real. For flesh and blood. Every single inch, every single drop.

会呼吸的痛 ~ 梁静茹

在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终於到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想
你总说 时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天 就有以后
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛 连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
後悔不貼心會痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛 
没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多麼 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑
你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动 自我地过
我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮著
你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什麼
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了
能重来那就好了

Yup, that sort of sums up my weekend.

Saturday, lock-out from our flat. I had to call up Sharon again for help. Feeling embarrassed as we haven't been in contact for quite some time. I don't know why. Hope she's still doing good.

Ok, so the problem solved at an opportunity cost of $40 and 40 minutes.

Thanked Sharon and ask her out for coffee/dinner next weekend. Will be meeting her after lunch with Ailing. Little pretty babe. Happily ever after. Just pregnant now. So happy for her =)

Sunday, BB and I went for an excusion. To Science Centre! Do we seem like two little school children?

Well, there were indeed many many children.

Ok, we went there for the magic exhibition which we have wanted to for months but never had the time/chance.

Haha, I have a hard time understanding the exhibit. My science is really limited. My understanding of the subject worse.

So you see, the visitors need some brains to be able to rationalise the so-called magic. I don't think I am up to it. Realised one thing from yesterday trip too, I am glad I didn't enrol for the magician class based on my very-enthusiasm.

The magic show was nice. Entertaining. Ha, I am like a child perhaps, easily entertained? The children were really enjoying themselves. So am I. BB? I think so. Anyway, he did commented that some tricks were so so familar. In fact. exactly the same.

And, only when we left the threatre then he told me that the uncle sitting beside me was his company's CEO and also holding some position at the Science Centre. Haha, I didn't really take a good look at him. But he said that wasn't the first time that we were at close proximity. Another time at Science Centre also and another at Sentosa.

Nice little day. Little did we know that it was having thunderstorm outside our laughters. When we were out, trees were uprooted and structures were damaged. Overheard the news radio broadcast that the paper aeroplane event was forced to be postponed at Science Centre yesterday!

Such an irony. While we were on foot on our way to the Science Centre, the sunlight was so bright that I could hardly open my eyes. The moment we were out from the exit, we saw that the ceiling boards have collapsed. Caused by the rain I supposed.

Another funny thing is, when we were at the threatre, I actually heard thunders. But at the back of my head, I was still thinking, is that the sound effect of the magic show or something? Haha. Didn't expect such a drastic weather change within such a short time.

Nothing more about weekend. Oh, I missed the live telecast of Barcelona's match again. Didn't want to give up on my sleep at that moment. But full of regrets afterwards. Always like that @_@

Many many updates. Much has happened.

I had the first operation in my life.

Wisdom tooth operation. Not of a big deal to many. But, to the extent of the urgency of the operation, it came as a shock to me.

No mental preparation. "You don't have a choice, I have to operate on you now," the oral & maxillofacial surgeon told me. It was after 6pm at that point of time.

The pain and discomfort on me was too much than anything else. I agreed, signed on the dotted line and proceeded for the emergency operation. 2% permanent loss of sensation to my left lower lip as my gigantic tooth was just sitting on top of my nerve. Goodness, I was thinking.

I had my left cheek swollen to the size of a tennis ball. Lumpy, painful, unable to open my mouth half as much as the normal size, difficulty and pain with swallowing.

I had a dental abcess under my wisdom tooth. My tooth was fine, just the infection of soft tissues. The wisdom tooth need to be taken out immediately in order to drain the abcess and remove the cause of infection. By then, The infection has already spreaded downwards towards my chin and over my cheek muscles. I was having cellulitis. =_=

One full day of going round and round seeing different doctors, unsure, referrals here and there, waiting in pain and wrong diagnosis.

That day, I woke up in pain, waited for the GP clinic to open. I was running a slight temperature then. Suspected mumps or other infection to salivary gland or stone in salivary gland. Don't think is dental, the doctor told me. Prescribed 2 strong antibotics and review the next morning or earlier if condition worsen.

Went home, couldn't sleep. Turn and toss. Pain and discomfort. Dad brought porridge and juice for me. That's the only intake I got for the whole day other than a bowl of soya beancurd in the morning. The rest of the day I had absolutely nothing other than medicine and injections.

By early afternoon, I discovered the swelling had become bigger even after the first dose of the 2 antibotics. I was feeling more and more unwell. Worried. Scared. Alone.

Called BB. He came back home for me =) Luckiliy. Brought me to the same GP again. By then, there was noticable increase in the swelling even for the doctor. Measured my temperature. I was running a higher fever than morning.

Urgent referral to NUH ENT clinic for scanning, she told me. The clinic assistant managed to arrange a appointment as a subsidized patient because I was a ex-patient at the clinic.

At NUH, because I was a subsidized patient, an MO saw me. My God, hell started. She followed the textbook, went step by step, saw that I did a scope previously and wanted to do a scope for me again. Keep asking my nose problem and whether I had any family history of cancer thrice. I told her there is no problem with my nose then, and it is the obvious swelling and pain that is bothering me. But she insisted that a scoping procedure for my nose is necessary.

Well, she had her wish. Done and she told me there seems nothing wrong with my nose. Obviously!! She again asked me if I had any family cancer history. I was petty pissed off with her by then and questioned her if she is suggesting that she is suspecting me of having cancer.

The MO then suggest that I go back and continue taking the medicine. That's all? I was real appalled by her "professionlism". So I asked her, what is it then? Mumps? "Could be", she said. Stone in saliva gland?

Obviously, she wasn't sure!! I told her firmly that it is perfectly because I was serious and that's why I am here now. And you ask me to go back again? She then said, "If you want, we can admit you and put you on IV antibotics and observe."

Perhaps, the dissatisfaction with her professionalism was so clearly written on my face that she in the end decided to get her senior doctor to review me. I tell you I really cannot believe she is qualified!!!!!

The senior doctor came, in less than 3 minutes of examination, he confirmed that it is neither mumps nor stones as the swelling position was not at my salivary glands. Upon checking, inside my mouth, he was quick to identify that there was a dental abcess and my swelling was high likely to be dental-related.

The MO and the GP also did examine my cheeks and inside my mouth, but none of them had done a proper disgnosis.

It was 4pm by then. I have been in pain for already more than half a day. Referred to NUH dental centre. Again, a big mistake. 1 hour of waiting and no dentist attended to me. And what's more, the dentists walking in and out there looks as young as the MO at the ENT who did a nose scope on me for nothing.

Anyway, I was too in pain that I have no strength to argue and paid for the stupid nose scoping that did not contribute to my diagnosis at all. Only more discomfort with tube into my nose with my already very swollen cheeks.

Ended up, called my orthodontist at Mount Elizabeth. He asked me to come down immediately and will see me as it was definitely an emergency.

Luckily, he called up the surgeon who was his colleague and he was still in and agreed to see me. Thank God. I was in good hands and went through the surgery smoothly.

I really want to thank all the staff and the surgeon who stayed back overtime to do the emergency operation on me even when the clinic was already closed The care and concern by the nurses and all were unforgettable. He is the nicest doctor/dentist/surgeon/specialist I have ever consulted. His professionalism, patience and assurance to a nervous and panicky me were essentials at the operating chair. He is Dr. Lim Kheng Ann from Mount Elizabeth. I want to write and send you a thank you card =) It is the first time I want to do that. From my heart.

5 days of MC and several reviews. Post-operation was much better. Swelling went down significantly. Just removed the stitches last Saturday. Tightened my braces also, woo...

Bought multi-vitamins and protein drink. Hope to supplement my restricted soft food intake, to have a better immune system against dieases, virus, infections and bacteria.

Thanks BB for all his love, care and concern =) Appreciates all that he does for me. Love him to bits.

I failed in the trading again. I don't know why. I keep trying but I keep failing.

Actually I know why. But I think that's not the only reason. I don't want the expiry of the reason too.

Watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. A long but nice movie. Draggy at parts but all worth the time. Especially the last part. It just proceeds to get more touching. The movie showed me how great true love can be. It is really beyond, physically appearance, attraction, age and time. Only people who experience it will understand. I do.

7.5/10.

It have been quite some time. But, nothing in the heart changes. The feeling is still there, if not multiply. Despite all the fights and tears.